The nutrition place cancelled on me the day before. Kinda ticks me off since I had another provider cancel the day of, recently. Even though they were separate places, my workplace sometimes seems like it’s this huge burden on them to let us miss work for appointments, you get everything in place and arrange to made up the time, and boom, never mind, you can’t come in.
This begs the question, do I need to see some specialist? Am I doomed to be resentful of half the stuff they suggest I do? What is the goal here? Show up once and see what they say, make notes and never go back? I probably can’t implement everything even if I try to take small steps and don’t reject everything they say. Is it more to get that other provider off my back who keeps giving me advice that I don’t ask for?
It may not hurt to go since maybe they could give advice on foods or supplements for inflammation, since that’s a large issue for me. I’ve been taking ginger and turmeric for a while, and in my experience, the supplements are usually higher doses than I would ingest in “real life” eating. Taking a spoonful or two of chia seeds every day like medicine, since still dislike them. Yeah, should probably reschedule when I’m not quite as miffed.
My mood is still very up and down. One day I’m trying to give myself encouragement thinking thigs like “I’m going to lose weight and feel better” and before long I turn it into a hokey affirmation of “I’m losing weight and feeling great.” Then a few days later the best I can muster is “It’s easier to be miserable and thinner than miserable and overweight.” Not that I’m about thin for the sake of appearance. But hey, when you need to reduce yourself drastically, smaller is going to happen somewhere.
Tried a new video today and pushed myself harder than I have in quite a while. 30 minutes straight walking in place (if we’re not counting having to stop and press the “skip ad” on youtube 4-5 times). Haven’t done that in quite a while. Hopefully my body doesn’t hate me tomorrow. I got 7000 steps by the end of work, including 49 minutes of “intense” activity, according to my fitbit. Would hope that’s something. Maybe help counteract all the junk-food I ate last weekend. Maybe subconsciously I thought I had to eat those Halloween themed Cheetos before the nutritionist scolded me to never touch them again. Yeah, that's it. Sad how it doesn’t matter how long you go without them, they still taste great. I keep hoping they won’t taste as good, but somehow they always do.
I admit the amped up exercise was good for me, and possibly even for my mood. There’s another point against that one provider with the unsolicited advice. Long time ago they told me to forget cardio and only do strength. Whatever. I think what they meant to say was that with my advanced age, it’s probably a good thing to focus more on strength and maintaining muscle. Not sure if people always listen to what comes out of their mouths. I don’t need people scolding me as if I need to feel guilty for still doing activities that get my heart rate up. Come on. Let’s scold the obese person for exercising while they’re already feeling down. Grow up. Where did that good mood go from my exercise? Huh, dissipates quickly, doesn’t it. Sure, it helps, but I have yet to see it solve everything.
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