My latest pessimism. I saw some of quotes how you can accomplish nearly anything as long as you believe you can – the mind over body idea. What is that all encompassing one? The body can achieve what the mind can believe? Right now I feel humph, yeah right. I would have been happy to mentally command my shoulder to heal on its own. As wonderful as the mind is, there are limits here. Same with faith and prayers to be healed (let's not go too far into that).
I wish I will my opposite shoulder to be healthy as well. The more I practiced doing certain tasks one-handed, the more I experienced sharp pains that don’t completely go away. Lately I find it difficult to find a comfortable sleeping position that avoids pain on both arm/shoulders at the same time. I’m wondering if it’s in my best interest to have my spouse help me with most things after surgery so I don’t continue to make it worse. All those videos show and encourage a person to be as self sufficient as possible. Generally sound advice. But what if I’m wreaking havoc on my other joints?
I can’t have multiple surgeries this year. #1, I can’t afford to take that much time off (sure, I wish I had 12 weeks PTO saved up). #2 cumulative medical expenses if multiple surgeries. Don’t even go there. #3 If it takes 6 months to get back the use of one arm, I’d barely be able to function with the recovery arm and then fix the other? Doesn’t sound like a good idea.
I hope the opposite arm isn’t damaged to the point it requires drastic intervention. But what do I know? What can I do to prevent it getting worse? Or promote healing to the extent that it can? I’ve taken several breaks (days at a time) when it hurts, and tell myself I’ve practiced enough; I need to take it easy. Then I try one little thing, and bam – stabbing pain. I have now stopped any practice/prep. We'll figure it out after surgery.
Sure, I can mentally tell myself that my tendons can self-heal and be happy, flexible and strong. But if it doesn't work, do we really need to feel mentally weak and incompetent as well as physically? This is where I've seen the lack of faith accusations as well. Sure, let's kick a person while they're down. Tell them if only they had sufficient faith they would be healed without modern medicinal intervention. (Can you hear me growling at that idea?)
That's enough commentary on that. Icicng the "healthy" shoudler. Not sure how to elevate (more than it is) or put compression on it. Those general RICE recommendations: Rest, Ice. Compression, and eventually exercise. Focusing on rest and ice for the next few days while I can. Wish me luck.
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