Exiled to Outer Permanent Darkness

Well, HR officially said no to a reasonable solution to help me function better and be more productive at their company. Cost-free and permissable under a Federal Disability Act, but no, they won't play ball. They legally have no right to ask for diagnosis, yet they did, because vague statements of permanent neurological conditions, attested from my doctor, do not cut it. No, they even asked for medical records, which is completely illegal. tacky, and creepy. And they could use to fire me if they didn't like what they saw (who wants unhealthy people employed?). And even if they did approve, if they got my medical records (no way) they said it would only be temporary, as they do not believe in giving permanent accommodations unless a person is basically missing a limb. So even if they eventually said yes, every couple of months, they would jerk me back and forth, and say gee, we need more medical proof that your condition has not changed, and then hem and haw if they want to allow it a while longer. Jerking me back and forth is harder on my system. So I guess if they figured that out, maybe that's the point in wanting me to back down and just shut up. It was stupid to try, I guess. My specialist advised I drop it or they’ll just make life more miserable for me and possibly find other reasons to fire me. Also that they are discriminating and what the heck is their problem. Multiple professionals have commented they’re being unreasonable since I qualify for ADA reasonable accommodation. But try telling them that. Of course, the sad thing in backing down now it looks like they called my bluff and I was just being an idiot. But it’s getting to be redic. Let’s see how bad it gets in winter. I can’t wait. It only came up because I got a complaint from a manager walking by my open-faced semi-cube who said it was too bright. I have 3 regular lamps, 2 official light deificiency “therapy” lamps, and a couple assorted led displays (those are for fun). I just ordered another therapy lamp as it was on sale. Amazon does have a pair of “glasses” that shine light directly into your eyes instead of having a big lamp. The issue is, if I’m already using a therapy grade lamp all day (not just 15-60 minutes, like normal people), Idk that the glasses would work (aside from looking atrocious – most embarrassing thing since head-gear, I tell you. In the meantime the most “helpful” idea on the internet is that CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) cures light deprivation, and the king of CBT Dr. David Burns has two books that will cure anything. Found the 700+ page book used for a few bucks and would sarcastically say I “can’t wait” to dive in.